I felt this one.
Even without any knowledge of tarot, one could look at the card and know this isn't good. We see the figure in the card upright in bed, face in hands, a shadowy, horned figure right beside her. For me this showed up as not much sleep due to anxiety. You know that song "Overkill" by Colin Hay? - that could pretty much some this up nicely.
For Spirit Keeper's Tarot, which is what I used for this month ahead spread, the prescribed method of activating your deck was via ritual coloring in the Book of Maps. The Book of Maps is basically an LWB on steroids. It is a grimoire for the deck with incredible information within, as well as full page pictures of each card you can color.
I've included a picture of the one symbol I chose to color which was the astrological glyphs on the bed. When I started coloring I kept hearing, "You made your bed now you have to lie in it." I also heard, "You can change your karmic debt." There's a feeling with this card that you've created your own destiny that is the basis for this mental turmoil.
Now, I saw this card a few weeks ago when I pulled the month ahead. I've been dreading it, and as such the anxiety for this past week built and built. Months ago I colored in the glyphs on the bed, and here I was having anxiety over the potential of having anxiety. At the risk of stating the obvious it all very much became a self- fulfilled prophecy, the shadowy figure my own shadow haunting me.
It did however become prevalent at work (my "day job"). On a much more mundane level, I'm losing 3 of my staff; all for great reasons! Two to career development moves, and one who is on maternity leave. Two had their last day on the 15th and yes one of those two had the baby girl on that day which also happened to be her own birthday!
This is exactly where my February monthly theme card The Empress and the 9 of Swords intersected. Three females all growing and expanding in different ways. Beautiful! The downside - me having to implement all of the coverage plans for all of the work. This was no easy feat, but it got done.
Another way I saw the Empress intersect with the 9 of Swords was awaiting the release of the album. For this I only play on one track, but it was going to be birthed out into the Universe at the end of the week. I've been fortunate to have a window into how things get done with an album almost from beginning to end over the last 5 years. I've been an observer, yet there was strong sense of anticipation turned anxiety throughout the week; not only for the release, but also in kind of feeling liked, "Hm. What now?"......I'm still figuring out the latter. lEt' call it a 9 of Swords hangover of, "Oh my God/dess what do I work on now musically?".
The Empress is there to remind me that in fact I do create, and I will create again when Spirit whispers in my ear.
as always if you've made it down this far i appreciate you! - leah