This final week of April I had hoped would be joyous as it was spring break and I'd taken the week off to spend with the kids. A much needed break.
The Haunt. This darn card. This woman with her face buried in her hands, with so much worry. That is exactly how the week went.
When I did the ritual coloring for this card, I colored in the bed with all of the astrological glyphs. In reading about the intended symbolism of this (Spirit Keeper's Tarot created by Benebell Wen) it struck me how this symbolized some type of karma for the worry that has taken this literal form of a shadow hanging over the woman.
I had not planned a whole lot for the kids and I over spring break. Whilst some of their friends were off to Disney or Jamaica, we would be having a "staycation". Having been gone for work the week before I really felt out of sorts. I knew this week was coming and had a few ideas - but, I was just worried it was going to be zero fun. We did however plot out some activities that they both seemed pretty happy with: tennis at the park, baking, and also just plain old sleeping in! Also we'd been talking about going to the Franklin Institute for the day to see The Marvel exhibit. So I got tickets and all seemed right with the world plus the weather forecast was gorgeous.
I did not however sleep in because I was so worried about being away from for an entire week. so I logged in each morning for an hour just to check in.
Then the morning we were on our way to Philly, about 4 minutes from the house - wham! Car accident right in the middle of an intersection. The other driver ran a red light and slammed into the driver's side of the car. It was scary and I'm still a little shaken. But everyone was ok including the other driver. We took my son to AI DuPont just as a precaution per EMS even though visibly there was nothing wrong - nothing broken, no bleeding (he was sitting behind me, driver's side - my daughter was in the front passenger side).
Then The Haunt kicked in to high gear: Was my son actually ok? Was this my fault? I've ruined spring break.....etc etc etc....
Once my son was deemed ok, I started re-hashing the whole thing. Their Dad came straight away and I have to say, he was a grounding force for all of us. He's listening to me recall everything, and then he says, "Leah, I stopped at the scene and took a ton of pictures. I saw it. Don't second guess yourself." Then my son, "Mom. Stop. The light was green. I saw it, too."
Still to think I could have been the cause of harming my own children and another person, it weighs heavy on me.
The energy of The Haunt is no joke. It creeps in your head, and stays until you gain the mental capacity to shake it off, cut cords with it, put plans in place to strengthen your karma. Or better yet, all of the above.
The Warrior, Master of the Mystic Light reversed as the month's theme, well it definitely could have been much worse - but it wasn't. The Marvel tickets were refunded, and cars can be fixed. My former husband is also a Leo - Leo being associated with The Sun card and in this case The Warrior. For certain he was a warrior for us this day for which I am incredibly grateful. We didn't get to do all of the things we wanted to do, yet we were still able to find some joy. We all recognized how lucky we were, and did our best to enjoy the beautiful sunny weather and allowing it to seep in to our bodies helping us regain our vitality.
April was a lot of ups and downs. I'd say I'm pretty ready for May.